Dear Diary,

You told me it would be uncomfortable. You were right. This journey of self discovery is a study of duality. I have been gone a long time and I am changed but still the same. I left you to find me and when I did, you were there. What bittersweet irony. In the end, it is another day of breaking through barriers. Barriers of faith, trust, acceptance, love, doubt, patience (always patience), and apathy; the most dangerous of these is apathy. So I say to you dear diary, I was never really gone as you have not been either. And I accept the consequences of this lesson with no regret. But I do mourn the illusion of abandonment and the mistrust it has engendered. I pray that with forgiveness comes a new beginning.

Broken

I understand the reason we break
and live again with sorrow
I understand the price of faith
and questions of tomorrow

I understand the way I feel
and who it says I've been
I understand the journey still
of breaking yet again

I understand this pain to be
a process for my growth
I understand and now embrace
the past and future both

I understand the beauty of
converging in the center
I understand the way is hard
and why I must now enter