Dear Diary,
I like to think I am self aware, enlightened, educated, feeling.... all the things we are supposed to strive for. And then I find myself full of envy and angst over a situation that DOESN'T EVEN EXIST. My latest manifestation of this is pure unadulterated jealously. I've come to realize that I seek attention and I give away my personal power in order to obtain it. And because of this, I need to restructure my relationships. How very humbling to have this sight... Translating cerebral information into embodied truth is possibly my biggest challenge. But, what freedom to be had! What joy is possible when we accept that God made us with everything we will ever need. So here is my promise to let go of doubt, insecurity, and external needs. The only real needs in life are sustenance, air, love, and elimination. And the love is provided from God and ourselves to ourselves....nothing else is required.

I am not in a place to write Awakenings today...but in these moments of weakness, I am thankful for friends who gently keep me on the right path. One such friend inspired this poem:

BEING UN-KISSED

Lyrical lines lead lovers astray and linger in loss on the air.
A kiss is a kiss and never can miss except when it never was there.

A lesson is learned and loosely returned for those who see light in the dark,
and maybe the kiss was already amiss burning true from a mystical spark.

I longingly look on the journeys I took to get through the languishing days
of uncertain demise for relinquishing lies and reclaiming the truth of my ways.

Lunar liaisons leave love in the light for the truth isn't lost on this pair
and although it is hidden and often unbidden they won't let the fire impair.